*Radioactive_Me

1December2008 (Monday)

2008-12-01T03:00:00.000-08:00

Sighs ):
DSM paper was such a flop.
I don't even know what I'm studying.. >.<
And. there's no motivation also.
Hard hard hard :'(

Gwen's back though.
Maybe that's the only high point.
Seriously, I have no idea what's going on.
But what can I do about it when no one is there to tell me what's wrong?
Ok, not no one..
There's someone..
But that someone doesn't really know what's going on entirely!
-.-''
sighs):

25November2008 (Tuesday)

2008-11-25T06:52:00.000-08:00

Let's hope that everything will turn out to be better. (:
So much happened recently.
I seriously have no idea what happened :S
Sighs ):

Btw..
Thanks Ryan,
For always being there to cheer me up when I'm down.
For always being there to motivate me.
For always being there, just to let me know that there's someone there.
I love you dear(:
Thanks loads!
Just wanna let you know that I'll try my best!
<3s

'Celeste_

21November2008 (Friday)

2008-11-21T04:18:00.000-08:00

It's been quite some time since I last blogged.

So much has happened in a short period of just ONE month.

It's currently the 6th week of school.

Which means MST in 2weeks! T.T

I find it so hard to find time to study when I'm home.

Seriously, it's so much easier to study in school.

But!!! Sadly, school ends late on Monday, Tuesday and Thusday.

As got Wednesday and Friday, I've got GEMs and SA Programme respectively till about 3.

Taken up most of the time. ): Not forgetting the blogshop. HAHA

It's a 'lil dead now though..

Gwen's coming back in DECEMBER! =p

Can't wait to catch up with all the lost time.

And..

I might consider staying over at her house.

MIGHT!

That's if her parents and my parents allow.

ROFL!

At the last resort,

I shall leave her house @ 3am and walk home!

It's just a SHORT 20minutes walk anyway :D

Oh well,

I think that's all for now.

It's so hard to imagine what is happening.

It's as if I'm transparent, and not wanted.

Maybe everything would be better if I leave.

Or maybe not.

It ain't my fault if there's no common topic between us.

Don't you understand?

Friends do not need common topics.

Friends are there cause they care.

Friends are the world's BEST listening ear.

14October2008 (Tuesday)

2008-10-13T23:32:00.001-07:00

Maybe after all,

those people whom you call friends

and seem like your friends

Aren't your real friends.

19August2008(Tuesday)

2008-08-18T23:57:00.001-07:00

I realised that he's happier w/o me.

13August2008 (Wednesday)

2008-08-13T06:25:00.001-07:00

As long as you are happy.

It doesn't matter if you neglect me.

I just wanna see you happy (:

'Celeste_

crazy

2008-08-11T07:42:00.000-07:00

The craziest thing I have done for love is..

waiting an HOUR in the mrt stn for my boyfriend.

Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008.

Originator blog: http://matthew-zachary.blogspot.com

19July2007

2008-07-19T04:59:00.001-07:00

What's happening?
I should be happy.
But am I really happy now?
I seriously have no idea what is happening b/w us.
It sucks.
Maybe we should have waited.
):

'Celeste_

18July2008

2008-07-18T21:42:00.000-07:00

My life turned upside down on 17 and 18july. I will always remember these 2 days.

'Celeste_

17July2008

2008-07-17T00:23:00.000-07:00

What can I do to make you believe?
Just tell me what I have to do..

'Celeste_

06May2008

2008-05-06T05:22:00.000-07:00

See...

I told you that there was NEVER any PEACE.

Now, I'm just their punching bag.

Whatever..

I wish I could just leave.

'Celeste_

01May2008

2008-05-01T04:54:00.000-07:00

There is never peace.

'Celeste_

30April2008

2008-04-30T04:42:00.000-07:00

It isn't so peaceful here anymore.

If only I could just leave.

Well, at least I still have him.

It's our 4th month today (:

'Celeste_

27March2008

2008-03-27T05:33:00.000-07:00

lalala~~

Just came back from class chalet..

Thanks to those for making the chalet a success(:

'Celeste_

19March2008

2008-03-19T05:11:00.000-07:00

Seriously, I'm SUPER PISSED with a bunch of people.

Just because they are our

~~SENIORS~~

DOES NOT

give them the right to push us around!!

Firstly,

I'll like to apologise to the people in my batch who really care about me.

I feel bad for leaving them in the lurch.

I'm REALLY gonna MISS those times when we crapped while shooting xD

And,

If I EVER go back there,

It will be for SUBCOMM

and not because of the COMM.

But for now,

I've made my stand!

I REFUSED TO GET PUSHED AROUND

AND

I REFUSED TO BE MADE USED OF!!

Well,

the present comm can counter me saying that I said in the interview that

'I should fulfill my role if given one'

AND

'I should find back my passion if I lose it'

The comm might feel that I've gone back on my word.

BUT.

LET ME TELL U GUYS.

I DID NOT!

I lost my passion and I've been trying to find it back.

I HELD ON TO MY DUTY.

And,

COME ON MAN!

all the crap about fulfilling what is said.

I BET that someone in that COMM has gone back on their word before.

SO DO NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT GIVING ME THAT CRAP ABOUT KEEPING TO MY WORD.

WOLVES IN SHEEPS CLOTHING!!

(psps, only SOME people in the COMM not all. At least, I think)

To get this clear,

you guys might say that you didn't do A THING to me.

But,

HURTING my friends as EQUAL to hurting me.

I'm writing this on BEHALF of them.

It took me 2mths to regain my faith in all of you.

And this is what you guys do.

Throw my re-newed faith in the the TRASH.

I just can't believe this.

Besides,

saying the year one SUCK doesn't make u guys the year twos BETTER.

IN FACT,

YOU GUYS SUCK MORE!

HYPOCRITES!!

Seriously,

I think the reason that you guys formed the subcomm was because you guys KNEW that you were too INCAPABLE and needed and also someone to PUSH THE BLAME on if anything happened!

Whatever it is,

I support my BATCH and I'm behind them till they prove me wrong.

'Celeste_

12March2008

2008-03-12T04:06:00.000-07:00

LET'S POST!! XD

rofl.. woke up early in the morning.. And guess what? My brother was like nagging at my mum

-.-

IRONY!!

Went to Westin Hotel for the buffet lunch today. The prawn appetizer was YUMMY! and so was the food.

SERIOUSLY!

It's SUPER DUPER YUMMY!! xD

awww.. dont be jealous..

IT'S FATTENING!! T.T

And guess what? I'm going to Rose Veranda for Buffet from 12 till 5 tml.

-.-

I'm seriously gonna put on weight.

And I mean...

PUT ON WEIGHT

T.T

But well, considering the yummy food.

I HAVE NO REGRETS

And seriously after tml, I start eating lesser.

So too bad to the guy who wants to bring me out for LUNCH :D

LALALA~~

'Celeste_

29February2008

2008-02-28T20:13:00.000-08:00

RAHH!!!

I'M SO FRIGGING CONFUSED NOW!!

I HAVE TO IDEA WHO TO LISTEN TO!!!

HELP!!

T.T

'Celeste_

19February2008

2008-02-19T06:48:00.000-08:00

I think I've changed.
Changed into an insensitive bitch.
Who cares not about the feelings of others,
but herself.
I'm really sorry if I made you jealous.
I really didn't mean it.

sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry
SORRYSORRYSORRYSORRYSORRYSORRYSORRY

Sorry for everything.
Just let me absorb all the blame.

'Celeste_

11February2008

2008-02-11T05:12:00.001-08:00

Haix!

Seriously, I don't seem to know who I am anymore.

And it SUCKS!

t.t

Why can't life just be the way it was before?

I hate all the lies and deceit.

I hate it when I still do things even though I know that it ain't right!

Sighs.

Can things just go back to what they were before?

11February2008 (Monday)

2008-02-10T20:49:00.000-08:00

O.o
I know I haven't been updating. But since its holidays now, I SHOULD! xD
CNY this year is such a BORE!
Not much visiting and so on, but well, I caught two movies(:
1st day : Ah Long, with the Cousins
3rd day : Kung Fu Dunk, with Brother and Ryan

yar.. well, there's nothing much to update lar.
Except that I'm attatched now?
Now, is it a good or bad thing?
Hmmms.

02 October 2007 (Tuesday)

2007-10-02T04:50:00.000-07:00

I'M SO FRIGGING PISSED!!!!!!!!!!
IS IT THAT HARD TO REPLY TO A SMS???
AND TO THINK I THOUGHT YOU WERE ANGRY AND APOLOGISED TO YOU!!
GAHHHHHSSS!!!!
RAWR!!

'Celeste_

24 September 2007 (Monday)

2007-09-24T00:03:00.000-07:00

ARGHHHH!!!
The first day of Semester is like... SO SO SO VERY BOOOORIIINNGG!!!!!
Bleahhh!! xD

'Celeste_

21 September 2007 (Friday)

2007-09-21T02:13:00.000-07:00

ARGHH!!!
WHAT THE FREAKING HELL IS GOING ON??!!!
GRRR... IF YOU'RE GONNA CONTINUE TREATING ME THIS WAY..
I'M SO GONNA TREAT YOU LIKE DIRT!
DON'T YOU REGRET IT!!!

*angry*

'Celeste_

18 September 2007 (Tuesday)

2007-09-21T02:11:00.000-07:00

Had a GREAT time at Sentosa. Got burnt too :s

'Celeste_

05 September 2007 (Wednesday)

2007-09-09T03:00:00.000-07:00

Left home for SP to return and borrow new DVDs. Such boring ride.. But what can you expect from my life? Boring will never be equalled to Interesting.. So who cares?

BlahhBlahh..

Boarded the train at Outram Park, and I noticed someone. She looked like so familiar.. and then I realised.

She looks like my Jie.
And if you're wondering why I said 'looks like', its because I havent really seen her for like.. 2years or so.. Besides, her hair was like..RED and she was wearing a pair of sunglasses.. so I couldnt see her face that clearly.

But, well.. It brought back memories.. Like how we (3 of us) used to go around greeting people with hugs and (two of us) breaking up with our boyfriends together.. Those days were like so innocent and carefree, but now? Haix, I guess it's just part and parcel of growing up. And now? A part of me is gone. I guess she never knew that I looked up to her. But now its too late.. It's all too late.

We'll never be the same again I guess.
I'll never be the mei you once knew, and you'll never be the jie I onced looked up to.

I'm hurting inside
It hurts so much
I just feeling like giving up
Just feel like giving up
But face it
Life sucks

'Celeste_

02 September 2007 (Sunday)

2007-09-03T02:37:00.000-07:00

1SEPT2007 (Saturday)

Was dragged out of bed at 9 and forced to accompany my parents to the market. Which was like.. ermms.. YUCK! The smoke, fish and ermms. market smell sucks!

Blah Blah Blah..

Took the 4pm bus out and went to the library to waste some time before going Hougang Bus Terminal. Met JinYong, YongRong, CheeYang, ChoonSong and Jingshi.

Blah Blah Blah..

Over all, the BBQ was a bomb!

And..

I wanna thank everyone for the prezzies!!

*GRINS*

Slept at 3am.

02SEPT2007 (Sunday)

Woke up at 8AM!

Went to church, had worship, sermon and breakfast there before going off to Comex.

It was only 1Am and the place was already JAMMED!!

Argh!

Saw ZhaoWei promoting and Daddy asked him for his opinion.

So..

TADA!!

That was how my NEW lappie was bought.

(It was ZhaoWei's FIRST sale)

And now, the specs..

ASUS F9S

Intel Cemtrino Duo Mobile Technology

- Intel Core 2 Duo Processor T7300 (2.0Ghz, 800Mhz, 4MB L2)

- Intel Next-Gen Wireless-N 4965ABGN network connection 802.11a/b/g/n

- Intel 965PM Express Chipset

- Genuine Microsoft Windows Vista Home Premium

- nVidia Geforce Go 8400M G up tp 896MB Turbo Cache

- 12.1" WXGA Colourshine & Crystalshine LCD

- 2GB DDR2 RAM

- 160GB SATA HDD

- TPM-Trusted Platform Module for Hardware & Software Encryption Security

- DVD Super-Multi Double Layer Drive

- Integrated Bluetooth 2.0

- Built-in Web-Camera (1.3 Mega Pixel)

- 8-in-1 Card Reader

- Biometric Finger Print Reader

at $2398!!
Hahas.Cool right?

Okays..I think I should stop this lappie stuffI dun want people to get jealous :)

'Celeste_

23 August 2007 (Thursday)

2007-08-22T09:27:00.000-07:00

Chiong-ed GYM.
And I'm like aching all over now :s
Aggrevated my hip again.
WTH!!
Stupid hip!
Quarelled with XXXX a few hours ago.
Stupid insensitive arguement about his hair.
Wth!
And I dont know why I'm still fuming. :s
It's partially my fault ok?
Or maybe ENTIRELY my fault.
I was the one who started it.
*CRIES*

You didnt cause any trouble.
None at all.
It's my fault.
All my fault.
Just let me be.
Sorry for wad I said_

'Celeste_

04 August 2007 (Saturday)

2007-08-03T21:07:00.000-07:00

Ok, Celeste is FINALLY here to blog.
About wad? I'll just do a random one.

1. Changed my braces colour to red and white on Tuesday.
I'm feeling so patriotic.
Lalalas.

2. Had a not-so-cold Cold War with Apple on Wednesday and Thursday.
Okies.
I admit lar.
I was at fault too.
Too insensitive of me.
:'(

3. Had TBCM Interview on Friday.
O.o
Was told to bomb everyone with questions at the last minute.
:s
Got interviewed by Andre and Low and ended late.

4. Chiong-ed for ISE assignment and missed ISE lesson.
Haha.
Went to Koufu after Interview. They were so engrossed that they forgot the time.
Missed ISE.
Rushed to SAC to print and bind and went back to Koufu.
Sat for awhile before Merv found out that we forgot to add something.
Rushed back to SAC to print and re-bind before Merv ran to SMIT office to hand in.
It was less than 5mins before Merv found out again that we forgot to bind in the handouts!!
This time round Apple did the job!
So man right??!!
ROFL.
Poor him lar. Wear long-sleeve still help us.

Okies. I just that's just it le.

I think I like you.
I think I like you.
I think I like you.
I think I like you.
I think I like you.
I think I like you.
I think I like you.

Argghh!!

Why is it like this now??!!
I was never like that!!

'Celeste_

29 July 2007 (Sunday)

2007-07-29T03:30:00.001-07:00

Okies..
I really HAVE to admit that I've been neglecting my blog..
Haven't been posting much..
But if you TAG me..
I'll usually reply..
It's easier to tag then blog lar..
Face it.

Java is like SO SO VERY stressful!!
(pulls hair)

Erms..
Nothing much to blog recently..
Except that..
During the 2days of TBCM OP..
LaoBa was 'tortured' by us(:
Poor him lar..Who as him scared of tickle..
WAHAHAHAS!!
Mervyn has uploaded our pics..
So I shall not upload it(:
(Can u sense some laziness?? xDD)

Ohh YES!!
Not to forget..
I got NAGGED at by Ryan on Friday night!
Just cause I got a fever. -.-
ARGHH!!

Gwen, see lar..
All your fault!
Hmmphh!
(Gives the joking look)

Archery was good.
Just have to remember to use the 'right' eye.
You see..
I'm right-handed
But I use the left-hand bow.
Complicated?
Well, forget it then..

Anyways, YA was great on Saturday.
Haven't felt so much enthusiasim for such a long time..
WOOTS!!
And Darling Sheena brought Ming Jun for service!
Hahas..
Had an open-mentoring with Uncle Daniel
And went for lunch with Boy @ Hougang Mall.

And today..
Woke up when mummie called my hp.
I forgot to switch it off the previous night..
So i thought that I had an alarm..
Took me quite some time to answer the call (:

Hmms..
I think theres nothing much.
So I'll end here.

[END]

Is it me I'm looking at the mirror?
'Cause I don't feel that it's me anymore.
I just want to go back to where things were perfectly normal.
I so miss those times.
Where times were so free and stress-free.

'Celeste_

22 July 2007 (Sunday)

2007-07-22T06:37:00.000-07:00

Had FUNDAY today.
Played a NICE match of Captain's Ball.
Yellow VS Pink.
Score?
10 - 4or5
NICER RIGHT? (:
And of course..
I was in YELLOW!!
Hahas..

It was funny lar..
I got the ball THRICE
and they were like..
Celeste throw! Celeste throw!
Then I was like..
Cannot! Cannot!
But I threw..
And we SCORED!!
Hahas.. xDD

After that,
played Beach Volley for awhile
Before heading back to tan.
It was 2 even before I knew it.

Packed up and left my cell.
Moved a little to the right of the beach
and joined Cel, Kus and Licia
to SUN-TAN!!
Sprayed sand all over Licia and Marcel and Markus.
Especially Markus(:

Took a quick shower.

Aunty Pat drove us back to Ah Gong House.
Those 3 HUNGRY PIGS ate maggie mee!
And I sat there and watched them.

LALALAss..
(Blabbers)

I'm SO like a lobster now.
So lucky that I wore a tanktop man.
My poor arms..
HAHAs..

Kor Flirt lar..
FLIRT FLIRT
(CHANTS)

Are we to be?

'Celeste_

16 July 2007 (Monday)

2007-07-16T04:23:00.000-07:00

Gwen's so gonna kill me when you sees this post.
That's if she's ever gonna see it.
So, to the people out there.
Please please please
Don't ask her to view my blog k?
Thanks!
Hahas..
Wanna know why?
'Cause before she left..
She told me to take good care of myself..
And now.. erms..
3days after the left for Australia
I hurt my foot!
Gahhs!
Don't ask me about it..
:S
Sorry Gwen
I tried to take care of myself lar.
Budden you not around mahh
Heehee.. Joking!!

Well.
I believed in my previous post that I had updated some of my marks..
So now..
I'm gonna update ALL of them.

Math - 51/60
COS - 64/100
ISE1 - 59/100
Java - C

See how badly I did?
Java wasn't even close to what I expected.
Stupid me :S

Ok. I'm determined to start chiong-ing already.
(:

I know you care dearie.
So just tell me that you do
And hack the hints.

'Celeste_

11 July 2007 (Wednedsday)

2007-07-11T04:41:00.000-07:00

Had Java lesson today.
Could understand and do the practical.
Got back results too..
A pathetic C for my Java MST.
So far from my expectations.
And I don't think I'm stressing myself.

Mind wandered and remembered that Gwen was leaving Singapore on Friday.
Started becoming emo.
*sobx*
Dripped a few tears..
Then Sam was like..
"You crying arhh?"
Den I was like..
"I'm ok"
Well, to be truthful..
I wasn't actually.
Sorry for lying to Sam.
:S

Had lunch at KouFu.
I was the only girl again.
Nothing much lar.

Went to Dover.
Missed the first train.
Met Ryan and Eldon there.
Started to guess the riddles that Eldon gave.
Lucky the both of there to help me divert my thoughts of Gwen.
Thanks guys!
P.S. Eldon, I liked the gun-rabbit-hunter riddle(:

Gahh!!
My old injuries are back!
Poor knee, ankle and arm.
I should have taken good care of you guys.
I'm so regretting now..
Let's hope my hip doesn't get a relapse
or I won't be able to walk :S

I'll be brave and not cry when the time comes,
I promise.
5Months ain't too long a wait for a goodfriend.

'Celeste_

10 July 2007 (Tuesday)

2007-07-10T06:43:00.000-07:00

Monday 09July2007

Had lesson as usual, and was playing game throughout :S
Was released earlier
And had a 1hr 30min break.
Returned paycheck and borrowed Matrix Rev.
Went to disturb LaoBa.
You should have seen the way he and Sam wrestled!
It was so entertaining!
Wahahahs..
Table Top Dancing =P

Continued poking LaoBa..
His reaction chao funny sia..

Had Java.
Didn't even know what the whole lesson was about.
Had to ask LaoBa for help.
He didn't really help lar.
Just say, "after this is what" and "that part put here".
Then I understand le..
Magical right??
HeeHee..

[END]

Tuesday 10July2007

Wore man man.
Had COS practical.
Ohhhs.. spent so much time searching for VMWare on the net.
And finally got it from LaoBa..
-.-
Gahhs!! He should have passed it over earlier.
Then don't need waste so much time :S

Went for ISE1 lecture.
Loaded VMWare.
Stared at it 'cause I didn't know how to use it.

Went for break.
Maths quiz.
Sets ==> 10/20
Computer arithmetics ==> 20/20.
Got back Math MST result ==> 51/60.
Only 8ppl got 50 and above.
Justin got 57half, and he was so cute when he said yes with that punch.

Jing ==> 52/60
Abimae ==> 57/60
Ryan ==> 37/60
Glo==> 57/60 (I think)
Can't remember the rest le..

Hmms..
Chatted with Linda on the train, Abimae too.
Went to meet Gwen at Mall.
She was like a tourist going, "Where's Hougang Mall??"
Wahahha.
Went Cafe Cartel and chatted awhile with Rasmus and Rastus.
They left and Ryan, Chih Yong and Amanda came.
So I left.
Gave a big hug to Gwen and a small one to Ryan too!! *hugs*
heehee..

[END]

Things to do:
1. TBCM OP slides
2. CD Individual Assignment
3. ISE1 Group Assignment
4. PRGJ Group Assignment
5. Revise COS, Math, Java and ISE.
6. MANY MORE!!

Gosh!!
I think I like you.
And away with those RUMOURS!!!
Arghh!!

'Celeste_

07 July 2007 (Saturday)

2007-07-07T09:17:00.000-07:00

Alarm didn't ring today.
And I found my hp on my bed when I woke up.
It was supposed to be on the floor. :S

Left home and sent boy to NUS.
Slept in the car.
Dad sent me SP.
Reached early and saw people kick balls on the muddy field.
Eeeeks!
The mud was like splashing everywhere.
Thought Archery was cancelled till I messaged the guy.
Was told that they were coming down soon, but we went up in the end instead.
(Crap Crap Crap)
Shot with the wrong eye.
I mean..
I used the wrong eye to aim.
So my arrows were like all WRONG!!!
Gosh!!

Left SP.
Dad sent Mom to Royal Hotel and we went home.
Went H.Mall for lunch and left for Youth Ablaze.

Worshiped.
Word.
Altar call.
The altar call was Great!
The Holy Spirit was everywhere and..
Yup!
Could literally feel it around me.
And when Auntie Ivy came to pray for me
I felt the Holy Spirit moving towards me.
And..
BOO!!
I started crying!
(healed)

Yup!
Thank God!
He's been so great to me
and after Re-encountering God, I just keep wanting poor.
I'm just so hungry for His touch.
YupYup.
God is Good all the time. All the time God is Good!!
Amen eh? (:

Hanged around awhile more while Gwen chatted with a few people before leaving for dinner.
Chatted and caught up with each other will we walked to Heartland.
Both me and Gwen have been through a lot
And we've both matured a lot too
Although I've to admit that she's more mature than me
But I'm matured too!!!
Although some people just can't see it and keep treating me like a kid
Hmmms..
No No No.
Actually,
I prefer not to show my true self
'Cause being a kid is better
More innocent.
Yup.
But some people just can't seem to understand.
And they say I'm acting-cute. -.-
Fine. Whatever.

Yup.
I'm done here.
Got my new ear piece (:

'Celeste_

05 July 2007 (Thursday)

2007-07-05T08:09:00.000-07:00

Went to tighten my braces yesterday.
Asked for orange on the right and purple on the left.
Ended up with 2 different tones of orange and purple.
One of the purple even looked like gray.

Today.
Watched a little of 'Paycheck' in NEL.
Reached Dover at 0955.

Had a throbbing headache.
Was giddy when Linda, Abimae and I were walking to the Bus.Block.
(could literally see two images..)
Got a sudden tap for APPLE and I jolted.

Entered a dark, hot, stuffy classroom.
Played game throughout COS lecture.
But listened during COS Tutorial.

Ate lunch at KouFu.
Could hardly enjoy.
(The power braces were like..!!)
ARGGHHH!!

CD next.
Group presentation was a disaster
(to me)
Kana divided into groups to play the square-game.
Got posted to the same group as APPLE for the 5th time.
Got first for the square-game
(though theres no price)

went for break.
(we got 1hr instead because CD ended earlier)
Talk and chatted.
APPLE's my dad????
wahahhahs
Den who's my mum??

TBCM lesson.
Did some questions.
Got posted to some roles for role-play.
Posted to the same group as APPLE for the 6th time!!

Yup. That's about all. (:
Sorry to bore the readers xDD

'Celeste_

04 July 2007 (Wednesday)

2007-07-03T19:00:00.000-07:00

I'm here to post.
Been having bad headaches since Sunday.
The headaches NEVER go away.
It starts when I wake up and ends when I sleep.
-.-
It least I get to sleep in peace.

Nothing much to post though.
Can't wait for Weekends!
Daddy's gonna get me a new earpiece!! xDD
Apparently, the one I bought 4months ago is spoiled.
So much for using cheap goods :S

1. I'll know it when you tell me.
So just say it.
Stop wasting my time.

2. If you're not the one for me, den GET LOST!!

3. I'm just me
Pathetic right?

'Celeste_

28 June 2007 (Thursday)

2007-06-28T05:58:00.000-07:00

Firstly, Java was a disaster.
Secondly, COS was a greater disaster.
Thirdly and last of all, Maths was a slight breather.

Kor's sa-yang.

SF's concerned.

Glo's sentimental??

What more?
Gosh! Why does it seem that NP's ppl are so much friendlier??

Makes me sorta regret coming to SP.
HAix.
(Celeste is stoning)

What can I do to make you notice?
What can I do to make you care?
Would you notice me if I disappeared?
'cause if it's so,
I'll gladly disappear.

'Celeste_

25 June 2007 (Monday)

2007-06-25T05:41:00.000-07:00

TODAY!!!!

Java Prac was a total SCREW UP!!
Gosh!! I'm like SO SO SO DEAD!

I seriously can't believe it!
What's the difference between Poly and JC life when the stress is like almost the same??!
Ohhhs. I forgot, JC has cheena. ( -.- rolls eyes at her lameness)

Ok. There's not much to blog because I've already crap like mad yesterday.
Had lunch with Jin Yong and Wei Sinn.
Well, actually.. It was they who ate. Not me :S

Left SP at slightly before One. Headed for the Green Line with Jin Yong.
Wei Sinn came along too! He decided to take the train instead of bus. Wahahas!
Boring journey to Outram.
(We were listening to ur Mp3s)

Boarded the NE Line at Outram.
Lols.. My poor hand ):
Go ask Wei Sinn and Jin Yong what happened! xDD

Went mama house to eat noodles, and went home.
Home. Slacked around while waiting for boy before proceeding to the gym.
Did intervals and weights. PHEW!!
I coundn't even do the minimun!
Got to start to 'chiong' gym already.
Must be fit xDD
Just like MI times! ((:

Gosh! Speaking of MI times..
Those fun days..
Where we would pon lessons
(especially CHEENA!!)
and slack in the library till school ends :))
And break too!
Roy and Jeff would always eat their 'Fan Choy'!!
Wahahs!!
And Chelvam too!!
Plus WanTan!!
Heehee!!

This BLUE part is dedicated to the cool funky 07B1 group and not the geeks!!
So.. only THEY have the RIGHTS to comment about it.
Yup yup. Sorry if I'm being mean. I can't help it :S

HAix.. Do you know that one memory leads to another? I still remember those wonderful times back in Rosyth where we would play catching! Maria, Yee Shi, Meng Yu, Desmond, Tedson. Gerald, Sheryl Chua, Cheryl Tan, Melodie, Daryl and Zhi Wei.
(Did I miss out anyone?? If I do please tell me k?)

Lols.. Speaking of Desmond *winks*

Hahs!! Wonder where he is now? *Hmmms...*

And there was the Secondary School times..
Not much for lower sec.
But upper was better.
406'06 headed by the Mrs Lim.
Woots!!
Only 11 girls and the rest were like rowdy guys.
Still remeber when we were in Sec3.
The guys kept getting into trouble
And in Sec4, all of them were like 'chiong-ing' for Os.
Literally 'chiong-ing'!!
Those guys grew from some immature boy boys to really responsible guys man.
Although their not gentlemanly :S
Wahahs!!
(Their gonna hammer me for typing this!!!)

Hmmms.. speaking of immature..
Lols
Sounds so me.
I'm Sorry but I can't help it.
I haven't had a good childhood to enjoy.
So let me just be a small girl now.
And enjoy what I've always wanted.
I'll grow up.
I promise.
I will.
Soon.
I hope.
Just you wait and see.
Just you wait.

I'm sorry if you misunderstand.
But it's the only I can protect myself.
It's not fair for the me to keep getting hurt.
It can't go on.
There's got to be an end to it.
And only I can do it.
Sorry Dearie,
If I had let you down.
Maybe we weren't meant to be.
Maybe we were meant to only be friends.
Somehow.
One day,
You'll thank me.
For saying GoodBye.
We'll still be friends if you're fine with it.
I'm proud to say that you're my friend.

'Celeste_

24/06/2007 (Sunday)

2007-06-23T22:29:00.000-07:00

Well, after much persuasion from Yan, Darrell and Stef(the 3 items), I decided to blog! Wahahaha! Guess this is gonna be my longest and most emotional blog, so.. BEAR WITH ME!!

06/06/2007 (Wednesday)

Mass Briefing!! Boring Boring Boring.. those guys ate all my sweets!! Arghh!! (disturbed)

Jin Yong kept 'gop-ing' my hp!! Kana bullied by Choon Song and the team.. Zzz -.-

Rong, Jing and Da was the best!! xDD

08/06/2007 (Friday)

Went to Koufu for dinner after lesson. Waited for 'HOURS' to use the washroom. Hopped on the the first train then came (it was like soo full). Only me, Jing, Da and Wei Sinn managed to get on.. the rest took the nxt train.

Briefing was like.. THE ROOM WAS SO DARK!! AIRCON WAS SO SHUANG!! so.. i fell ASLEEP!! kana push my Jing.. den i lean to the left and kana push by sam! wahahas.. didnt sleep after that.

Wanted to go back, but the guys kept fooling around. Glo climbed to the second floor of the carpark. Saw the police car and he hid! lols! The guys fooled about awhile more and we countinued the journey.. lolls.. (LONGWINDED)

aiya! they just kept fooling around lar.. by the time we reached the station.. I was like soaking wet!! lolls.. and it was like so late.. :S

alighted at outram and went back! [END]

10/06/2007 (Sunday)

Woke up at 5am to get ready. Got on the the first 112 and took to Hougang Station. Boarded the train and sat to Jurong East. Reached at 8am!! (half an hour early) saw Seok Min and off we went to buy
Mac! (well, I 'pei-ed' her only xDD)

Went back to the station to wait for the rest. Wanna know the order??

1. Celeste
2. Seok Min
3. Linda
4. Yong Rong & Chee Yang
5. Jing Shi
6. Ryan
7. Samuel
8. Wei Sinn & Choon Song
9. Glo!! (reached at like.. 8.50??!!!) Grrr..!!!

walked to JTC and got our BANANA SHIRTS!!! hee..

(walking bananas walking bananas.. *chants*)

got posted to Dover station, together with Jing Shi, Sam n WS. It was so bored that we tied extensions to our hair and started cam-whoring! xDD

Went back to JTC summit and have the prize-giving session.. Managed to take a pic of Ryan sleeping. WEE!! wahaha.. (went home and drew flowers on his face before sending it back to him!!)

took group photo, and left for ah gong house. Was in the train with Ryan, Glo and Linda. Kana suan and laughed at by Ryan and Glo siaz.. they're MEAN!!

Reached Ah Gong house. Kor, Di and Sheena was there too! Havent been able to bond with Kor and Na like we used to! So.. wahahas.. gossiped loads!! and cam-whored too!!! xDDD

(Celeste is happy!!!)

16/06/2007 (Saturday)

Ryan kept emphasizing that he's man.. -.-'''

Had Pastor Mike's teaching at audi. Powerful man!! wahha.. couldnt wait for church camp!!

crapped with Ryan over sms.. lolls.. we had used almost 70plus sms by midnight

17/06/2007 (Sunday)

Cont with the smses.. (lame)

coudnt tahan and fell asleep at 0230. Ryan replied at 0231!! wahahs..

woke up at 0500 when the Girlfriend music was played, and got ready for Church Camp!! Weee!!

nth much for first day of church camp.. resting day.. hahs..

Room got messed up the the countless guys in our room. (poor me, stef and grace)

well, not countless. lets see..

Rastus
Rasmus
Jia Wei
Zhao Wei
Reynard
Chih Yong
(it seems like a crowd in that small hotel room, esp when Mus and Rey started fighting!!)

17/06/2007 - 20/06/2007 (Sunday - Wednesday)

Well, God's really really and I mean REALLY amazing!! I went to church camp with a broken and shattered heart, and now, my hearts almost whole again! Felt to small before the camp, and now, it's like so different. Seriously, He's AWESOME!! I'm like so refreshed and on fire now!

He's love is coming over me
Softer than the breeze
Warmer thant the seas

His love
Is flowing right through me
Cleansing all my sins
Lifting all my grief

And I could sing
I could ran
I could shout out loud

I'M IN HIS LOVE~ ~ ...

yupyup.. not the forget what Stef did!! wahaha..

The lamp (spoilt before we reached the room) couldnt light up. And stef was like.. 'Oops, Let's call room service'

THEN!!! THe dryer blew when Stef switched it on!!! wahaha.. I COULD HEaR the *POOF*!!!

and Stef said "Let's call room service"

on the second day, Stef used her leg to push the stool, and it BROKE!!!! wahahahahah!!

Stef was "Should we call room service?"

Me and Grace were "NO!!!"

Stef was "Not my fault, I push only"

then she added "Well, I'll just put it properly"

funny?? -.- heex

well, it's funny only for me, Grace and Stef cos we were the only peeps there.. so no one has the right abt this matter except for US!!!

21/06/2007 (Thursday)

Ryan's still emphasizing that he's man -.-

22/06/2007 (Friday)

Java mock!! DIE!!

Kana called up at 6.55 and was told by daddy that I was late.

Rushed to bathe and then came out and realised that my alarm had not rang!! I SET 0700!! (LAUGHS)

kk.. that's abt all.. I know it's been boring.. but it's me!! wahahas..

Spare him! Can't you learn from my example? YOu've hurt me SO much and now you're gonna hurt him! I'm brittle on the outside but strong on the inside, he's the entire opposite!! Don't you know that??!!

I know how he feels, that's why I stand up for him. We do have our own little probs, but nevertheless I still love him!! I don't hurt him the way you do!!

Let me tell you honestly that I've hated you all my life, until now. Cause I know you care. But let me remind you that he's different from me, he'll continue hating you unless you change. Remember this, unless you change, he'll continue hating you

I've been hurt too much to trust anyone again. Those memories of fun seems so distant. There's no longer a desire to long to be happy anymore. Sometimes I wonder if it's my just desserts. If I had made a decision not the fall for him, maybe my life would not have turn upside down. Maybe now, I would still be the happy-go-lucky Celeste. I longer love him, but the hurt and lost can never be replaced_

If only I miracle would happen, If only all the distrust would go away. I'll gladly surrender my all the him.

To the 2 I knew since dunno when:
Zzz.. I don't like him lar.. wahh lau.. in sch they say he like me.. den in church you guys say I like him. -.-'' that's childish!He's your good friend, don't you guys know and understand him??!! Or is that what good friends do? Tease, hurt and misuderstand?

'Celeste_

Friday, 20/04/2007

2007-04-21T05:27:00.000-07:00

Darling Gwen left S'pore this morning! (cries) Gonna miss her so so much! Couldn't sent her off cos had to have breakfast with mum. Well, actually, I couldn't wake up. So it's not really the breakfast's fault. Sry Gwennie!

Went Ikea to eat and met up with Abimae and Linda Jie at Tamp MRT stn. Travelled to Dover.. nth much abt the journey though.

Was a little moody cos I was missing Gwen. Saw CS, WS, Glo and the others. They really irritate me sometimes with their crap and always get on my nerves. But I really appreciated their nonsense today because it made me forget about Gwen's departure. (Thanks guys!) I guess I've learnt to appreciate them..

'Celeste_

Thursday, 12/04/2007

2007-04-12T05:43:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 5.45 today and got myself ready for SP flag day. Took the Rio Shuttle Bus out to Hougang Central Int and waited a freaking 10MINUTES for the bus to arrive. Kana jammed near Toa Payoh. Stopped at Blk 177 when I'm supposed to stop at the next stop (Toa Payoh Stn). Reached the Control Station exactly at 7.30am!

Waited awhile for Choon Song and Wei Sinn before Jing Shi called them. They were late! Well.. CS was late, but WS waited for CS, so both were late! Whatever! Watch them eat Mac before two other guys joined. (forgot their names!)

Slack around.. yupx.. nth much lar.. Pinched CS! GOSH!! his poor hand siaz.. i didn't know that I pinched that hard!

SORRY CS! haha..

The grp of us Wanted to leave CS in the train when it reached Dover. But we ARE GOOD people, thus, we called him up. (He looked so blur!)

Counted our donations and went home.. DONE!

'Celeste_

Sunday, 08/02/2007

2007-04-08T01:31:00.000-07:00

Went for Inspiration Unveiled yesterday. Had two 'live' testimonies before proceeding for dinner. Dinner was great, buffet-style.. the desert was yummy! Enjoyed 1/4 of the marble cheesecake and the pudding with vanilla.

Spilled fruit punch on Phy!

Queued for glamour photoshoot, took pics with our cams during the long wait..

AND the NICEST photo that I took goes to... *drumroll*

The photo with me and Jun An! *claps*

Took glamour photo with the cell, followed by Phy, Shar and Gina. LOL! waited LONG for the photo.. the cell PS me at around 8.30pm... den Shar, Phy and Gina left at abt 9pm too! The printer JAMMED! so I left too.. lol!

Joined Mum and Dad's cell. Helped Mum baby-sit.. WE DREW EASTER EGGS!! and ate Chocolate fondue too! YUMMY!!

Saw my DARLING Gwen today at First Service! Missed her loads! WE HUGGED!! But She's only staying for two weeks! *sobx*

Joined Stef, Grace, Darryl and Gina for Second Service's worship.. den left.

Gosh! How can these people be so FREAKING unreliable! They said they would come! I heard it, and I came! But guess what?! Only TWO turned up! Goodness me! Just because two of your friends aren't in Singapore doesn't mean you guys can't come! Fakes! Copy-cats! BLAH!! Why do you guys have to ruin the new regained trust in you all the time? It isn't fair.. So.. Don't blame me for being mean.. It started when you guys....

'Celeste_

I AM @ YOUTH.SG

2007-03-05T04:25:00.000-08:00

I AM @ YOUTH.SG

'Youth' in the Little Oxford Dictionary mean the state or period of being young. However, the word 'Youth' to me means fun, laughter, stress and friendship.

Being a Youth in SG is not easy. It’s stressful because we need to lift up to the expectations of our parents, friends, siblings, teachers... practically everyone. Not forgetting the study part, O-levels, A-levels and so on. But lucky me! I just finished my O’s last year, and I won’t be doing my A’s because I’ve decided to go by the ‘poly route’.

However, being a Youth is fun. Youth matters! We're fit to play all sorts of games, pushing ourselves to the limits. Lollx! But being a youth means wide range of friends (it’s easier for youths to make friends) which also means open doors to bad influences.

BUT! As long as we know our limits, There’s nothing much to worry about.

I joined ‘I am @ Youth.SG’ because I was tempted by the wonderful prize that was offered! 30GB IPOD! Cool! If I win that, I will never have to worry about deleting songs from my MP3 player ever again! (P.S. That’s why you should vote for me! XD )

What’s life without music anyway? Music plays a great part in my life, though I’m not really musically inclined. It’s my good friend when I’m sitting on the bus or train, keeping me company throughout the whole journey. (I mean.. when I’m travelling by myself)

Let’s not neglect the friendship part too. Many people say that I’m easy going, but I feel otherwise. Maybe it’s because of my character? But I really treasure my friends. They are always there by my side, even when I throw my NASTY temper. They are always there to comfort me too! Although it’s just 3months into 2007, I feel that there’s been a great change in my ‘friendship’ life. My long-time best friend just left for Melbourne a month ago and is going to study there for 5years or so. I’ve just graduated from Xinmin Secondary School and have been torn apart from the CCA-buddies that I’ve bonded with for the last 4years. The Girl’s Brigade RAWKS! Sec4’06 ROCKS!!

My Long-time Best Friend!
(Psst! She’s Pretty right? I hope she doesn’t bring an Aust. Boyfriend back!)

Sec4’06 GB Girls!
(One person is missing though)

Champions Night 2006 @ Xinmin

My Lovely CCA
(CHAMPIONS EVERYONE!)

However, while waiting for my results, I applied to Millennia Institute to study for the first 3months. There, I made really GOOD and EASYGOING friends! YOU GUYS ROCK AT MI! 07B1!

Not to forget my cool church friends! Some of whom I knew since I could ever remember.

And the cool cousins I chilled out and cam-whored with on the first day of Chinese New Year!

(GOSSIPING about our results!)

Yup! So That's almost everything about me as a youth in SG (: vote for me if i get selected kz? thx *bows*

*END_

Wednesday, 21/02/2007

2007-02-22T04:40:00.000-08:00

a recap of events...

Saturday, 17/02/2007

No Youth Ablaze.. Went Grandma's house for reunion dinner... ate.. had YuSheng.. ate finish.. Watched Daddie, Jie Jie, Gu Ma and Shu Shu play Mahjong for half an hour.. den cant TaHan.. lie on the sofa and sleep.. slept till 12.14am den mummie woke me up. time to go home le.. paid 2plus extra for the carpark cos lapsed into the second day.. went back and bathed..

Sunday, 18/02/2007

Woke up at 7.45 cos needed to go to church and needed to prepare.. bathed.. den mummie told me that daddie say not going church.. cos boy tired.. but daddie was still sleepin like a pig when boy woke up!! PIGGY!! lollx.. XD

Went to Grandma's hse for lunch.. Gu Ma came awhile later.. hahas.. ate and left le.. den went to Ah Gong's house.. played BlackJack till 10plus.. den Kor suggested that we go watch show.. lollx.. ask dad.. den he not happy.. budden Godma they all help me.. say, "One year one time.. let her go.." den he reluctantly let me go.. budden wanted to watch 10.40show.. den dunno if got tix.. so went internet to check.. budden the web lag... rushed to The Cathy.. tix for Norbit sold out.. den rushed to Plaza Sing.. got 12.10show for Just Follow Law.. bought front seat siaz.. head pain till like siaox.. :S finished at 3am.den Godpa sent me, Kor, Kenny, Licia, Kus and Marcel back to Ah Gong house... waited for Mum they all to finish their last game den went home.. reached home at 3.30.. slept at 4plus.. lolls.. guess wad.. money for the movie was won from the games.. hahs.. still got leftovers.. (:

Monday, 19/02/2007

woke up at 11am, went to Uncle Joe's house.. den went Grandma house for lunch.. budden Shu Shu haven't come back.. so Gu Ma, Dad, Jie Jie and Mum played Mahjong.. playeed to rounds.. Gu Ma zimo.. den Shu Shu came back le.. ate lunch den left for Ah Gong house.. sat for awhile, den played BlackJack.. won a few bucks.. (: den went home le..

Tuesday, 20/02/2007

visited families..den went Suntec.. went home for dinner.. nth much today..

Look What You've Done - Jet

2007-02-15T04:28:00.001-08:00

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
fool of everyoneA fool of everyone

'Celeste

Thursday, 15/02/2007

2007-02-15T03:59:00.000-08:00

Havent Blogged for a week or two. So.. here's some peeks (:

Got back Os results on Friday, 9Febuary.

English B4
Geography B3
Combined Humanities B3
EMaths A2
AMaths A2
Combined Science A2
Mother Tongue C6
Oral UNGRADED

L1R5:16 L1R4:13yea.. look at my Chinese and oral man. :S

Slacked at home from Fri till Wed. Chose my course on Tuesday night with mummie. sat in front of my labbie and talked till 12.30am before choosing..

1. SP-Infocomm Security Management
2. NP-Banking & Finance
3. SP -Banking & Finance
4. TP-Financial Business Informatics
5. TP-Cyber and Digital Security
6. NP-Network System & Security
these more lar.. until 12.. but i think i should get into my first 6choices ba..

Went to MI today. Jeff didnt come cos he dyed his hair and couldnt find spray. scared that he got caught. hahs!

exchanged gifts with BBQ peeps (:

ABSENT: Priscilla, Wendy, Jeffery, Mable, Malina

talked crap during POA. Went to the hall for some Total Defence thingy. BORING!
p.s. Little Bowl talked to me!! EEKS!!

Went down for 1hour break. Grace wanted to leave, Roy too... but he took his time eating Cindy's Brownies. made Grace mad.. hahas.. cos the guard went to GO, so no one looking after the Gate.

Decided to pon MT, so sat in the Library for 2hr15min. Talked to YS.. nth to talk lar.. dunno wad to say. he doesnt talk much anyways. yea. ended the call by accident. hahs!

was sleeping.. woke up for a few mins before the Libarian use the loudspeaker to ask ppl to shut up. lollx. gave us a fright siaz.

ate egg tart in the library. talked to Jeff on the phone. funny lar.. he keep making those weird sounds.. wanted to let Jeff listen to Rachael snore.. den we put the phone in front of Rachael den he said, 'HUH' lollx..

went Management. Stupid excercise, no fan and no light. Freaking hot in the classroom man! Chelvam talked to us abt MI and Polys.. hahs. no one was in the mood for lessons ayways.

went home.
Jurong East to Buona Vista : With Rachael
Buona Vista to Redhill : Myself
Redhill to Outram Park : Me, Wei Lun and friend
Outram Park to Kovan : Wei Lun
Kovan to Hougang : Myself

waited 15mins for the Rio bus, noisy ride home. all the Aunties were talking.. ARGH!

Buzz the intercom. No one home. Someone oped the gate. say that the lift was at 12. guess that boy just reached home. so took the lift up too.. scared him when i pushed the door open.. heex :)

*******washup*******

Read The Edge Of Darkness on my bed. was tired so decided to sleep. Zzz.. woke up at 6.13pm when Boy tapped me.. was tired, so fell asleep again. woke up again when boy asked me to make dinner. got up with a SPLITTING headache..

took dinner with daddie nagging.. Dots.. went to my room to fa dai. took out my MP3 and Blasted Look what You've done by Jet. Somehow the song attracted me.

Who Am I? It seems as if I no longer know myself anymore. The songs so true. Look at What I've done. I made a fool of everyone. I've fooled everyone into believing who I really Am. Fooled everyone.. If only I could show them the real me. If only if only.

Questions!
1. What does it mean when a guy kisses you on the cheek and says that you've his best friend?
2. Wadds the difference between one'e dream guy and the guy one loves?
3. Will time really heal wounds?

'Celeste_

Friday, 02/02/2007

2007-02-02T06:03:00.000-08:00

'Celeste_

FINALLY!!! ITS FRIDAY!! WEEX!! heex.... it great on fridays man.. go to sch at 8am and end at 12pm... 2 lessons only.. econs and GP.. (:

but cos econs was the first lesson.. so no one to mess with the controls.. hahas.. so had to go thru the whole boring lecture.. budden she good.. cos she gave us break and let us of early.. :)
hahs.. GP was fun too.. discussed abt gay-marriages.. yea.. heex.. den after that.. walked to Westmall.. hahs..

met Shirley there.. then saw someone behind Cindy.. thought that it was Salt.. but i looked behind.. (IT WAS A GIRL) den laughed.. but suddenly out of nowhere.. Salt popped out.. gave us a fright siax!

went Westmall Library.. sat there till almost 2.30... actually supposed to go walk walk at 2pm wann.. budden i wan read book.. so.. heex.. THX GUYS!! XDXD

den walked outta Library.. stood outside Sakae.. discussing if we shld go in.. loll.. in the end, we walked into World Of Sports and Harvey Norman.. LOLS!

den went into Sakae.. lollx.. played Zhong Ji Mi Ma.. hahs.. Shirley and Cindy ate the most Udon siaz.. SY reaction slow.. heex.. the Zero with her thumb.. hahs!! Jeff... acting sissy.. heex (:
budden abit spoiled cos.. (dun wish to say)

yea.. den jeff left.. den we sat for awhile.. Zuo Bo... den paid bill.. yea.. den went MRT le.. Yuan alighted at CCK.. den had to alight at dunno where.. cos the person changed shift.. wahh.. loads of details siaz.. cut it short.. talked with alt and Shirley.. yea.. short enuf.. den alighted at Woodlands.. and we went our separate ways.. hahhas.. thats it.. END!!

How I wish I could tell you the truth.. the whole truth.. But.. If I really do.. Will we still be friends? I dun wanna lose it all.. Just like a did before.. My heart too shattered to be dropped again.. If only.. If only... I'm afraid that once the truth is out, I'd be avoided, shunned and... Will you still be you if the truth is out? Or should I stay contented with what I have right now...

_TheWorldOfWadevers*

Thursday, 31/01/2007

2007-01-31T04:47:00.000-08:00

'Celeste_

hmms... not in da right mood to post abt today.. so.. i'll jux keep it short.. boring day with boring Econs followed by break.. yea.. well break was fun lar.. next was Acc, den break again.. second break was funnier... went to the Lib. saw Jun Jie there.. so went to call him.. hahas!!. he got a shock man!! haha.. den Siew Yuan, Seow Ting, Timothy, Jun Jie and I took photos.. did we all take?? hmms.. loll.. sth liddat.. hahas.. got new sista le.. Timothy Jie Jie *shivers* wanna know how he became my sista?? ASK ME!!! heex (:

next! hmmms.. management lorx.. followed closely by HTP. BORING!!! nth much.. den.. yea.. went home le.. kkz.. enuf crap.. i'll end here b4 the readers die of boredom XD

END!

I'm not crazy I'm just a little unwell... well.. i'm not jux unwell, i'm confused.. if i knew it would be like this, i'd rather not have started it.. its hard to turn back now.. but i dun want my fingers to get burnt.. in the world of wadevers.. no one cares.. i'm left all alone. i need time, time to heal and time to forget.. but time is costly.. isnt it??

_TheWorldOfWadevers*

Saturday, 27/01/2007

2007-01-27T05:45:00.000-08:00

'Celeste_

What a day siaz.. woke up early at 8am in the morning to go IKEA for breakfast.. but guess what?? we ended up leaving home at 9:30... what the heck siaz.. waited so so so long..

den went walk about for table.. kaoz.. dad kept arguing with mum siaz.. jux for one stupid table.. they argue, argue and argued! Zzz... and when they finally decided to buy the table, they found out that it was sold out! WAsted all my time siaz.. *fumes*

kkz.. next, walked to Courts.. cant rmb wad we did there.. but... wadever.. it was damn boring siaz... rushed home to get ready for Youth.. yea.. loll. Melvin preached today, followed by Bible study by Uncle Lawrence.. hahas.. it was quite confusing at first when we were supposed to read the test.. budden.. yea.. gradually understood liaox.. heex.. kkz.. i suppose thats all le ba.. (: nth much anyways.. heex..

END

What the heck Am I thinking?? I shouldnt be like this anymore.. I thought that I would change after that bad experience.. but I guess.. habits do come back.. Or is it just me.. if only I could return to the carefree me.. if only i was a bird, flying about so freely.... this is me.. welcome to my world...

_TheWorldOfWadevers*

Friday, 26/01/2007

2007-01-26T05:42:00.000-08:00

'Celeste_

Yoz! time to update my dear bloggy.. lollx.. nth much today lar.. RIGHT?? (think so..) went to school... den was freezing.. so brought along my brown jacky.. the weather didnt look so good, thus, we were told to go to our HT room... haix.. went there lor.. aiya.. nth much siaz.. quite sianz lor.. esp during Econs.. hahas.. so many ppl self-break lor. and she didnt even bother..! (: heex.. but she quite good lar, start and release early... hmmms.. i think the only good part about school to day was the more that 1hr break.. lollx.. even went library to sleep! heex..

wahh.. Cindy! u clever siaz! heex.. *shy* lollx.. Sheeeesh!! Dun tell anyone kz?? *blushh* hahax... doubt it'll last long anyways.. ehhs.. i'll tell Siew abt it soon... yea.. Siew!! Sry to keep it from you worx.. i wasnt sure.. (still not sure..) if i noe liaox den tell u ba.. most likely next week (:

went back to XMS to collect my EAGLES award... yea.. saw my GB juniors.. all of 'em looked SO SO SO CUTE!! in their mufti! heex.. *grins*

oh yea.. not to forget.. went out with mum too.. was supposed to shop lar.. but we walked and walked and guess wad?? we only bought a purple blouse from OAMC... wahh! my POOR leg... hahs!

i guess thats all le.. heex.. so.. DONE

_TheWorldOfWadevers*

Thursday, 25/01/2007

2007-01-25T04:16:00.000-08:00

'Celeste_

Woots! Its been eons since I last blogged... hmmms.. if i didnt remember wrongly.. my last post was on 2Sept! (my b'dae! heex) well.. have been damn lazy lar.. i noe that gek and gina got keep asking me to post.. but too too too lazy.. hahas.. so i guess they just gave up asking me to post.. GEK!!! I've BLOGGED!! hahas.. (finally) heex..

kkz.. loads to say.. but no idea where to start.. hmms.. whatevers.. so, heres a quick review.. heex.. enrolled in Millennia Institute for the 1st three months.. well, i was quite reluctant to go there, but God was great siaz.. He allowed me to meet my Primary School friends.. yea.. hahas.. and allowed me to.. u noe.. heex.. lollx

So.. MI.. hmms.. i'm in 07B1 currently, studying business lor.. hahax.. kkz.. enuf intro siaz.. lets talk abt today... was actually EXTREMELY happy wann lor.. cos Yan Soon got come school.. (neva oversleep) and he decided not to withdraw (did he?? hmms..) yea.. budden hor.. lesson havent start (actually started liaox.. started early) hor, he kana picked on by Xiao Wan.. den have to be send back home.. haix ): stupid bowl! KICK YOU!!! >X

sianz lar.. budden when Xiao Wan say she have to send Yan back that time hor.. Yan suddenly 'attitude' Scary lor hahs! den me and Cindy keep.. yea.. hahax.. haix.. stupid sch rules.. *bish*
loll... kkz. enuf kiddy behaviour le.. heex.. crap lar.. den after lesson when running.. wanted to run 4rounds.. yea.. den we said wanted to run Yan's share.. so 6rounds lar.. budden in the end neva.. cos i kana attack haix.. ): sry Cindy! sry Yan! *cries*

i guess that's it ba... lucky tml dun have Xiao Wan's lesson.. den dun need see her.. WAIT!! aiyo.. need see her.. during Morning Assembly.. haix! ):
END

_TheWorldOfWadevers*

Sunday, 23/07/2006

2006-07-22T19:15:00.000-07:00

wow.. its been two weeks since i've blogged, feels like a month though. dont have much time to come online, so this post is just to keep my blog alive.. (gek!! i blogged)

yea.. havent been going for Youth Ablaze for two weeks, sorta miss going there. The cell is fun, yea, they are nice. But, haix, they do backstab sometimes.. (a lotta times) haix..

wadever it is, maybe i shoudnt be so sentitive. I guess i should let some things go. It not fair for me to bottle e verything up.

[let the gentle breeze caress me.let me worries be blown away]

08/07/2006 (Saturday)

2006-07-08T18:56:00.001-07:00

haix.. so havent been posting.. not that i dun want to or lazy to.. i jux dun have time.. lollx.. i mean.. seriously, i'm like so busy.. with revision and stuff.. wad the HECK!! its so crazy now..*stress*

wanted to go for the bonding today.. buddden wasnt allowed to.. lollx.. lucky didnt go anyway, cos e main person never go.. lollx.. wahh.. he really made Randy pissed man.. but its true lar.. not that i wanna oppose him.. but.. its really irresponsible of him lor.. haix..

hmm.. instead of going for cell gathering, dad pulled us to Hougang Mall.. i know he loves me a lot but cant he jux say it.. i mean.. wads e use of saying nasty words, den using actions of repair the hurt.. haix..

anyways.. he knew i wanted to go for the gathering.. he knew that we were supposed to go eat sushi. so.. he treated me, mummie and boy to Ichiban Sushi.. hahs! yea... he cares about me lar.. jux that he has his pride.. so he doesnt say it.. but.. wahh.. its like.. the 21century le.. come on lar.. e world is changing le.. hahas!! XD

hmm.. den had sermon about controlling our emotion.. yea.. i must control my emotions siaz.. suicide is not the way to solve everything.. yea. so.. no more cutting wrist and matchstick stuff le.. yea.. NO MORE!! yupxx.. gonna be a good good gal XD

had altar call den went out.. yuppx.. Wendy prayed for me.. so. yea.. i mux learn to let some things go man.. gotta let go the anger that has built up in me for so long.. so gotta release forgiveness.. yea.. RELASE IT in Jesus name.. yupxx.. (:

den after that i walked to the bus stop with Jia Wei, Stef, Chih Yong and Ryan.. they were going Heartlang to eat.. den we met Darryl at the bus stop cos he walked Gwen back home.. yea.. Ohh.. they waited for me at the bus stop till my bus came, before going for dinner. lollx.. THANKS GUYS!!

yea.. and I was so darn late when I went home.. Zzz.. hahs.. i kept telling ryan that my bus come le.. budden it didnt come.. i tot 113, 115 and 119 was my bus lor... so ma lu.. budden lucky the fourth bus was 112.. heeheex -.-

hahs.. yea. den went home le lor.. thats about all le.. end here..

Buai_

Saturday, 01/07/2006

2006-07-01T05:53:00.001-07:00

Hahs.. woke up early in da morning cos was supposed to go out with mum for breakfast. However, mum and dad had a change of plans, so we didnt go out.. but I had to meet Shao Wei to pass her my cap.. yea.. lollx.. i think i made her wait very long siaaz.. SORRY!!

hmm.. tuition was supposed to start at 11.30am but somehow, Mr Tan came around 12plus.. hahs.. first time he so late man.. usually he come early or on time wan.. lollx.. rushed out for lunch with dad and bro cos we didnt wan to miss the bus.. hahs.. yuppx.. ate chicken rice.. yea.. den after that, daddie treated me to passionfruit milk tea.. hahs.. budden majority of the poor drink ended up in my bro's stomach.. heex..

took e bus home and had to rush out again to go for Youth Ablaze.. didnt want to be late.. so..yea.. hahs.. Uncle Daniel gave e word today. It was abt making choices.. yea.. and.. hahs.. i made a commitment to God lers.. yea.. so.. i mux keep it lor.. i shldn't make empty promises anymore le.. after all, God has helped me forget the guy who hurt me, so i shoud not forsake him.. Yea.. mux TRUST GOD!! heeheex..

Thursday, 29/06/2006

2006-06-30T04:28:00.000-07:00

I HAVEN'T BEEN BLOGGING!!!

Saturday, 26/06/2006

2006-06-26T05:46:00.000-07:00

Searching for the guy I once love_
Thursday

Woke up at seven today to get ready for PPB.. yupx.. Washed up and put on my uniform and pin on the pins.. hahs.. need to have all eight pins den can go for PBB siaz.. lollx.. was so close to being late man.. reached HQ at 7.59am.. hahs.. saw Phy, Bee and Gek.. den we went down to the basketball court to fall-in.. lollx.. need company IC siaz.. den phy dun wan be.. so we push push push. den she push me so hard.. den she fall in den I gottag take e squad lorx.. hahs.. den sway sway i forgot to salute to the mdm when I fell out.. hahs.. sway siaz..

Den we had photo-taking, so funny lorx.. take at the beginning of the camp.. so they saw if take at the end hor.. den some ppl go home le.. den e photo not complete.. hahs.. so yea.. took on first day lor.. lollx

have ice breaker.. den committee time siaz.. lollx.. had to plan warm up for sat.. yupx. we planned station games siaz.. lollx.. nt much today.. so.. NEXT!!

Friday

Today started of bad.. REAL BAD siaz.. hahs.. we were supposed to report for warm up at 7am.. but we woke up at 6.55 siaz.. so we were late lor.. haix.. SWAY siaz.. den I forgot to bring name tag.. so Wahh.. ahhs.. no more PBB le larx.. lollx..

Saturday

Jux returned from PBB camp.. hahas.. it was fun.. yupx.. learnt alot from the camp.. hahs.. and.. made loads of friends there.. DORM7 RAWKS!! lollx.. yupx.. it was great siaz.. i mean.. the camp was different from all e other GB camps that i've ever attended.. and.. i didnt regret going for e camp lor.. although its pretty near to the end of school hols..

was drained though.. and had to walk all the way till Heartland Mall for my dad to pick me.. Zzz.. my bag was like SOSOSOSO heavy..

went home.. got nagged at.. Wad e!! uhh.. spoilt my mood lor.. but.. hahs.. i attitude everyone siaz.. den it was ok after awhile.. XD

bathe and got ready for Joseph Gor Gor's wedding dinner.. hahs.. we drove past church and I saw my cell.. well, yeahh.. saw them walking to S-11.. ya.. hahs.. saw Gwen, Darryl, e gossipper.. and a few more larx.. lollx.. i think they're better off w/o me larx.. YEA? hahs..

lollx.. reached there so early lor.. den walk walk.. den we took a photo with the bride and groom.. yupxx.. den after while den e rest of them came lor.. me & sheena took photo.. yupx.. hahs.. ohh.. she was supposed to sit at another table wan.. but she transferred over to our table.. den Gor's mum and dad transferred over to hers. lollx.. e place was messy momentarily.. lollx.. cos we changing place.. hahs..

e dinner started late.. lollx.. but nice lar.. den half way they got quiz for e bride and groom.. hahs.. funny siaz.. Joseph Gor Gor like so shy liddat.. ohh.. mushy siaz.. but he quite ok lar.. managed to get 3 out of the 6 questions right.. so only have to drink 3 cups of whisky.. hahs.. XD

yea.. den in between.. e grp of us kept taking photo siaz.. lollx.. funny siaz...
den went home.. Damn tired siaz.. so i fell asleep in the car.. hahs.. kkz end here le.. BUAI_
*The world of wadevers

Wednesday, 21/06/2006

2006-06-21T02:24:00.000-07:00

Searching for the guy I once love_

haix.. leaving for PBB camp tml.. hahs.. kkz.. i hope its gonna be
fun.. heard from Gilda that its sth like 'take-charge' of ur own
cammmp.. hahs.. thats interesting.. lollx.. gotta report at HQ at 8am
tml.. yea.. need to wear full-u.. with my NEWLY SEWN ON RANK!! hahas.. yupx.. and.. i've polished my boots too.. jux that its not as shiny as Bee and Phy's wan.. haix.. (Shhhoooo shi bai) :( lollx.. almost finished packing le.. yea.. mux call gek when i'm done.. hmm.
wait.. do I have to call her? or did she say she'll call me?? hmmmss..
hahs..

ohh yea.. so i wont be blogging until.. wahh.. quite sometime ba.. cos
school's gonna reopen soon.. and yea.. i wont have much time.. i think
everyone is gonna CHiong liaox.. yea.. so i gotta pick up e CHIONG-
STERS spirit and start to chiong with 'em too.. yuppx.. haix..

we'll be having Campfire on fri.. hahas.. Campfire's burning now
campfire's burning now!! hahs.. gonna get PBB shirt too.. Woots!
lollx.. another extra shirt liaox.. hahs..

Saaturday is gonnna be sooooo fun too... well although i bet i'll be
tired after i break camp at 4pm.. but.. JOSEPH GOR GOR IS GETTING
MARRIED!! hahs.. its been a looong time since i saw him man. and yea..
his gf.. lollx.. rmb e times when e grp of us laughed at her mole. i
mean.. not me.. but my gob-bro cum cousin.. yea. hahs.. and joseph gor
gor would jux laugh.. HAHA!!!

hehes.. i guess i'll end here le.. hahs.. i'm still looking at 'My
Wants' lollx.. see the 'tease kor' and laugh at Dinosaur Gor Gor..
hahs.. so wanna do that.. den can cancel away.. and write new wan..
ahhhs.. BEWARE KOR.. I'M GONNA START TEASING YOU AGAIN.. HEEHEEX... XD

yea.. guess i'm gotta end here lers.. hahs.. kkz.. ohh.. btw.. i'm
still pissed with that gossipper.. i ain't gonna be a hypocrite.. i'm
pissed and thats it.. yea.. PRONTO!!

*The world of wadevers

Tuesday, 20/06/2006

2006-06-20T19:55:00.001-07:00

Searching for the guy I once love_
Today was great.. i mean.. not that great.. but great.. yea.. okokok!! AVERaGE.. neh.. slightly worst than average lar.. hahs.. yea.. woke up.. wasnt hungry.. but dad wanted me to eat.. so.. yea.. went to look for something VERY light.. hahs.. yuppx. biscuit.. hahx.. nth much happened in e morning. yea.. so nth much to type. (LAME)

kkz.. hmm.. yea.. talked to **** and heard that someone has told Dinosaur Gor Gor that I lyk him.. wad the heck.. i never admitted it.. kaox.. i mean.. like hello?? gossipper.. can u have e courtesy of asking me first b4 you start spreading.. wad e heck.. wadever lar.. go gossip all u wann.. gossip gossip gossip.. nvms.. i wont be able to hear it anymore anyways.. wont be seeing you guuys soon.. WONT BE GOING FOR CELL ANYMORE (at least.. till my anger cools. :( haix ) wadever.. dun say i spoiled ur mood.. u can go on gossipping lar.. go on go on.. wadevrs.. jux continue with life man.. i dun wan anyone's life to be halted because of me.. and.. yea. u guys dun have to sennd me a card or wadever.. its no use man.. i mean.. wads e point of signing e card when e majority doesnt mean wad they sign.. now i know how Sarah feels.. haix.. kz.. wadever.. i mean wad i say siaz.. I AINT GOING FOR CELL TILL MY ANGER HAS COOLED. DUN BOTHER SENDING ANYONE TO DROP BY AND SAY HI.. ITS NO USE.. U GUYS DUN MEAN IT ANYWAY.. wadever.. i feel as if i've been cheated by u guys.. BACKSTABBED!!!!! wad e heck.. CRAP!! some of us knew each other since young.. and.. yea.. this kindda stuff still happens.. kkz.. FINE.. have it your way.. WAIT!! i'm not saying everyone in the cell.. not R**dy.. not *we*.. and not.. yea.. but.. well there a HANDFUL OF HYPOCRITES.. wadevers.. i'm not gonna let euu guys spoil my mood.. wadever/// in the world of wadevers.. no one cares.. yea.. i shouldnt care abt you guys.. BACKSTABBERS..!!

hahs.. enough abt e BAD bad stuff.. it seems as if i'm facing a MAJOR crisis siaz.. i'm always blogging abt bad stuff.. but think abt it.. if its not bad.. then theres nth much to blog le.. hahs!!
hmm.. saw Liyun mei online.. but.. haix.. she went offline after a few words.. cos she was at her friend's hse.. and had to go for dinner.. XD hahs.. but at least i got to see her online *hahs* YIPPIE!!!

hmm.. i guess i've gotta end here soon liaox.. hahx.. kkz.. bye_

*The world of wadevers

Monday, 19/06/2006

2006-06-19T19:43:00.000-07:00

Searching for the guy I once love_

Zzz.. PISSED!!! my dad threw my bag at me.. wad the HECK!! i was sleeping lar.. not faking.. HELL!! throw bag at me.. throw throw throw throw... kaoz.. u think I wad.. ZzZz.. *BLEAHH* F*ck!! hate ya.. HUMPH!!

so pissed.. zzz... did science angrily.. heck!! den geog.. zzz.. bro went for show with his Jetclass peepz.. lollx... so good.. can get away from dad. Bet he enjoyed it.. dun have to listen to dad's irritating voice *irritated* hahx.. yea.. and poor me.. had lunch with dad.. *SUX* i hate it when he talks bad about my friends.. HELL!! Zzz.. wads wrong with hanging out with my church friends? wads wrong with going for cell? wads wrong wads wrong... NOTHING'S WRONG MAN!! YOU're e one thats weird.. accept it lar.. my cell has more guys than galz.. Zzz.. protective.. WADEVER!! *bleahh*

no fair! i treat them as friends.. yea? i knew some of them since young kz? kaox.. wad u wan me to do? treat them as enemies?? stop psycoing me kz? idiot.. they're not as bad as you think. AND I'M NOT SIDING THEM!!! crap.. stop talking bad about them in front of me! have you EVER cared about my feelings? F*CK! NO! YOU NEVER CARE ABOUT HOW I FEEL!! *bleahh* ALL YOU DO I HURT HURT HURT ME.. WAD.. DONT I HAVE THE FREEDOM TO MAKE FRIENDS??!! WAD KINDDA STUPID THEORY YOU HAVE.. U MEAN GUYS ARE NOT GOOD FRIENDS? THEN HOW ABOUT YOU.. THAT MEANS THAT YOU ARE NOT A GOOD FRIEND TOO!! idiooooot_ THINK BEFORE YOU TALK LAR.. CRAP.. *bleahh* HUMPHH!!!!!(ZZZZzzzzzzZzzzZZzzzzzz..........)

IHATEYOU!!!

Com still crazy.. Zzz.. darn connection keep disconnection.. crapx.. i cant even use e internet.. hell lar.. sucky day.. *bleahh*
when bro used his com.. i couldnt even connect.. wad e.. ........ haix.. wadevers... life is never fair anyway.. ... yea.. its never fair to me lar.. kkz.. ITS NEVER FAIR TO ME!!! ... i'm always e targeted person.. ... F*CK!!!
such a BAD DAY!!!! ARGH!! no mood to type abt my day anymore.. end here.._
Zzz.. no one understands.. no one.. i'm jux bottling it up.. its better that way.. no one would be affected my me then.. i'll jux affect myself.. remember the times when i cut my wrist.. so wanna do that again.. but.. yea.. i dun wanna hurt my friends.. its not fair to them.. haix.. so dunno wad to do.. HELP!!!

*The world of wadevers

Sunday, 18/06/2006

2006-06-17T23:24:00.000-07:00

Searching for the guy I once love_

Bummer... theres sth SO DARN WRONG with my router and laptop siaz.. jux cant connect.. Zzz.. stupid com! Bleahh.. Bored siaz.. wad e heck.. woke up early cos i've been sleeping like a pig e past few days.Zzz.. yea. pig..wadevers.. got up and started doing up my blog and stuff.. had to redo e WHOLE thing cos my blog crashed *piss off*

my router is still not working.. Zzz. if u're wondering how i managed to pen down my thoughts.. well.. i typed it in notepad.. den transferred it.. lollx.. pls du mind me.. i'm like so bored.. Revising geog now.. zzz.. geog.. so dun like it.. have been getting F9.. but.. lucky me.. got E8 for mid-yrs.. muahaha.. haix.. E8.. wad e.. cant even go JC siaz..kaox.. stupid grades are hindering me from being myself! I HATE MYSELF!! ARGH!!!!!

phew.. FINALLY I CAN USE THE NET!! daddie jux helped me fix it.. budden it still goes off sometimes.. *irritated* hahs.. at least i get to use.. lollx..
still bored.. wad e heck_ reading newspaper.. theres like not much news recently siaz.. BORING BORING>> YAWNS!!! (: heeheex..

Lamer siaz.. thats so me.. hahs..

my life has been turned upside down by you
wad the heck
leave me alone
i need time to forget you
please
leave me alone
i hate the pain
it sux
so wanna end it all
go away
i want my life back
i wanna be that happy-go-lucky Celeste
that everyone once knew
I WANNA BE ME

*The world of wadevers

Saturday, 17/06/2006

2006-06-17T04:14:00.000-07:00

Searching for the guy I once love_
Tues
Boos.. woke up damn early today.. cos needed to head off to KL for church camp.. Yawnz.. siaox lor.. my stuff was ready but my parent's stuff wont.. so wait for them to pack and pack.. could have slept for another hour siaz.. waste my time lehx..

yea.. finally we were on our way.. hmm.. nth much to write abt ba..

Wed
Zzz.. me and ashlee pon indoor games to shop.. so we had like 4hours plus to shop lor... but our mood wasnt good siaz.. cos yea.. of sth R and D said.. yupx.. budden ashlee so funny.. she spent like most of her $$ on body shop lor.. i think she's regretting now siaz.. hehex.. *Ooops*

haix.. cried during sermon.. (night) felt so stupid.. hahs.. i think dinosaur a little stun tio.. hahs.. i felt that God wanted me to forget him. i mean.. yea. forget.. but i've tried so many times.. so afraid of failing again lor.. haix.. but.. yea.. mux have faith and trust in God. Hope that i'll be able to forget him this time. yupx. hope that he and his new gf will last ba.. yupx..

Thur
I finally bought e jacket I wanted.. daddie paid for it.. YEAH!! hahas.. Chih Yong and Russell bought a new wan too.. a pity we didnt take a photo siaz.. new jacket lehx.. hahas.. hmm.. we were geared up to swim but it rained.. so we didnt swim lor.. hahs.. ehs.. GIRLS ARE NOT SLOW LORX.. hahs..

Fri
last day of camp lerx.. haix.. it only feels like 2days lorx.. i think mum's right. maybe cos i didnt have enough fun ba.. hahas

so right..

Sat
woke up early.. todo MATHS!!! urgh.. had maths tuition larx.. sianz.. hAIX.. den went for lunch .. wanted to go Youth Ablaze.. so wanted to go.. budden daddie say stay at home rest.. den mommie say i not feeling well so dun go.. wad e heck.. *piss off* Bleahh.. wadever lor.. kaox.. so. slept all e way till 6plus den woke up.. Zzz.. stupid headache.. haix.. kk.. enough crap lerx.. g2g.. byebye

where's that once happy-go-lucky-me

laughing that everything that is said to me

now i'm sulking at that corner

being so alone

with no one to comfort me

no shoulder to lean on

so missing that old me

hate myself

hate my life

hate all the lies

hate all the pain

so alone

wish it would all end

NOW

*The world of wadevers

Saturday, 10/06/2006

2006-06-09T22:49:00.000-07:00

Searching for the guy I once love_
wahhh... darn lazy to blog siaz.. but since i'm so free.. i guess i'll jux blog for the sake of blogging ba..lollx

ytd
actually today's mood quite ok wan.. den when the new VP call out those who gotta go to sch on the 3rd.. den my spirit dampen lor.. haix.. stupid larx.. kaox.. jux becos my L1R1 not good.. den mux go back to school everyday.. kao bei lorx.. haix.. budden nvms larx.. cos i gonna go overseas.. hahax.. den cAN ONLY go on Monday.. hmm.. poor WenLin lor.. gotta go so many days. hehex.. den Sher and Andrina lucky siax.. dun need go at all.. cos they got e sch's UK trip.. pro man.. hehex..

hmm.. den went back to class.. oh.. got the cute boyboy.. hahas.. her son so CUTE! sweetie pie.. hahas.. *Burps* lollx.. so.. hardly teach lor.. den jux go thru abit of e paper.. hmm.. den the boyboy asked Jian Hui to 'get out' lollx.. GOOD!! lollx.. huo gai lor.. heehee..

den had SS test.. stupid siaz.. made my study for nth.. kaox.. coem in den say open book.. sux lor.. make me sleep so late.. *bleah* budden i think i wrote 2much lerx.. 3pages siaz.. so siaox.. all crap lor.. majority copy from the notes wan.. hahs_

went on the fieldtrip too.. supposed to end at 6pm wan.. budden rain.. so we jux stayed in the bus lor.. den jux drive around. went Marina Bay, den Changi, den erms.. yea.. Changi.. went changi for lunch.. hahas.. the duck rice.. okok lar.. nice lorx.. den went Compass.. den went back to school.. ended darn early.. 2plus end liaox.. THX FOR THE RAIN SIA!! hehex.. *Oooops!* Sheesh.. dun let anyone see.. or else die le..

den went home.. do 3Amaths paper for tuition.. den went online to talk to Andre.. lollx.. crap saiz.. but.. had a nice talk.. ANDRE THX FOR LENDING A LISTENING EAR WORX!!! *hehex* hmm.. den at 11.30 went ofline.. got ready to watch world cup.. budden still got half an hour more.. so i went to lie on the bed.. denn... HAIX!! I FELL ASLEEP!!!! so never get to watch lor... DAMNS!! but.. i doesnt matter.. hahs!

today
woke up early.. 8plus ba.. to do AMATHS AGAIN.. haix.. sianx lar.. den ate banana muffin for breakfast.. i prefer e wan my mum buys.. though she says e wan i ate is nicer..lollx

den.. had tuition.. sianx sianx.. but mr tan is okok larx.. he's nice.. though naggy ba..
blogging now.. sianx larx.. so cant wait for tonight.. BBQ!! hehex..so many ppl comming can enjoy ourselves and can gossip lerx.. haahs.. YEAH!! >>END<<
*The world of wadevers

Wednesday, 07/06/2006

2006-06-07T07:16:00.000-07:00

Searching for the guy I once love_
heys.. wahh.. today damn shuang.. wore class tee to school.. hahax.. nice lorx.. except for the fact that DHKY forgot to put my lao gong's name.. wait.. it sounds wrong... he drew e graphics over it.. yea.. dun he didnt know whose name.. so he never bother to check.. yea.. more like it..

lollx.. had chem lesson in e chem lab.. wah kaoz.. damn hot lor.. haix.. ohh.. still got.. e part where she sublime the iodine solid.. lollx.. e colour very nice... hahas.. den veryone got a shock when someone took out her camera to take a photo of it.. got that blinding flash.. irritating man.. hahs.. then after that e fumes darn irritating.. den alot of us ran out of class.. hahax.. den Chee Sheng's eys red red wan.. lollx.. funny siaz, but who ask them to act-brave lor.. den dun wan come out.. den 'ren' and 'ren' hahs. huo gai! hehex..

NEXT!! had chicken cutlet during break.. it was average lor.. though it tasted a little funny.. yea.. its usually crispy wan.. but today's cutlet was abit soggy lorx.. :S

while waiting to board the bus, we took a class photo.. funny siaz.. use so many camera.. i think everyone pose until very tired lorx.. hahas..

dEn we went to URA gallery.. its ok lar.. abit boring.. but.. haix. nvs ba.. me and shar amnaged to take a few photos..but most also blurblur wan.. so we taking more on friday.. yeah.. hehex..
sianx lor.. jux finished tuition.. tired man.. dEn kept falling asleep.. but not my fault ma.. today is a really really tired day lor.. den last night did not sleep enough ma.. yuppx.. cant blame me.. hehex *BLEAH*

kkz.. enough crap liaox larx.. i think i'll stop here for now.. yuppx.. cant wait for church camp siaz.. haix.. e only sad thingy is that dun really got gals to pei me lor.. den most likely wouldnt be able to hang out with e cell cos e majority are guyx.. haix.. and my parents would like.. u noe.. nag nag nag siaz.. sadded :( but.. nvms.. i'm gonna have an encounter with GOD.. GOD, HERE I COME!! WOOOHOOO!! hahas.. tata_
*The world of wadevers

Monday, 05/06/2006

2006-06-05T05:53:00.000-07:00

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Mondays are boooring.. they always are.. haix.. has it ever been interesting? ;( well never ba.. hmm.. kkz.. had english lesson first, den we played 'musical chairs' lollx. lame game siaz.. wahh laoz.. BOOOORING!!! haix.. crap larx.. so sianz.. Kaoz.. kk nxt!!

Hmm.. after break got Chem lesson.. dEn did e practical siaz.. wahh.. i die liaox le lor.. all dunno how to answer.. Zzz.. hard man.. how to get A1 with this kindda crappy marks man.. siao liaox.. Zzz.. *wadevers* hahax..

Actually today got nth to crap larx.. hahax.. so lets talk abt yesterday ba.. went for GDOP yesterday.. hmm.. how to say.. its nice.. yuppx.. but not wad I expected it to be siaz.. i tot it was going to be more.. erms.. u noe.. more.. hmm.. 'on fire' type lorx.. haix.. but sadly.. it wasnt..

hmm.. i'm like so looking forward to church camp man!! 'SUPERNATURAL IS NATURAL' cool! budden darling Gwen not going.. haix.. i think majority of e ppl in my cell not going ba.. sianzz.. haix.. but.. yea. its e word that counts.. so wanna have another encounter with God man.. yuppx.. kk i think i'm starting to crap again.. no more crapping.. stop stop stop... heeheexx.. END!!
_BYEBYEBYE
*The world of wadevers

Saturday, 03/06/2006

2006-06-03T06:25:00.000-07:00

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Whew.. today is such a tiring day man.. woke up very early.. cos need to report in church at 8am.. to watch e practise.. den.. yea.. so.. we spent the feww hours practising.. lollx.. e actresses improved alot.. so.. yupxx.. *Zhang Shen Gu Li Gu Li* hahax..

yupxx.. dEn after that went up the bus then reached Kuo Chun.. wow.. so crowded lorx... heeheex.. yea.. dEn not time for our coy to perform yet.. so we found a corner to sit and yea.. placed our stuff there.. then went group by group to walk walk about and buy stuff.. lollx.. hmm.. the skit was great.. budden when we stood up to dance with e skit ppl hor.. very embarrassing lor.. cos we were the audience ma.. haix.. but quite fun.. I like the part when Valerie threw the 'heart' den the judges all look up and tried to see where it landed lor.. hahax.. so funny.. yupxx.. so finally.. WE GOT GOLD FOR THE SKIT!! WOOT!! our efforts totally paid off man.. e gals woked so hard.. budden the skit could have actually been better wan.. so.. Girls!! Do theres more room for improvements kz? dun be TOO complacent siaz.. JIA YOU!! hahax..

Den.. after we came back to church hor.. den got farewell for the sec4s and sec5s.. yupxx.. den we blew the cake.. hahax.. i like the 'thank you seniors' chocolate.. heehee.. the cake was delicious man.. who bought it? nxt time mux buy one whole thing for me worx.. (Ooops.. laer I become fat how? hahas.. jkjk) lollx.. OOohoh.. still got.. the bottle that we received.. nice man.. SHIOK!! nice man.. you galz are so thoughtful.. hahax.. I abit bu she de take out the scroll to read lehx.. *wink* nvms.. will take out later.. hahax..

hmm.. after that, we went for cell.. had combined cell siaz.. such a big big group.. heeheex.. yuppx.. den talk about tongues.. heeheex.. wahh.. i didnt know that tongues are so dangerous lorx.. hahax.. it can hurt ppl and also bring them joy and give them confidence siaz.. hmm.. mux be more careful when i speak next time man.. heeheex.. yupx.. den aunty elsie's sermon was great yea? yupxx. den during alter call, i went out lor.. got someone prayed for me.. haa.. yupxx.. i'm so recharge now.. (GOD HERE I COME!!) hmmm.. i think thats all le ba.. i crap alot le.. hahax.. buai_
*The world of wadevers

Thursday, 01/06/2006

2006-06-01T05:44:00.000-07:00

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Wha.. Sianx.. lor.. my com crashed.. all e file gone.. (Pao De Wu Ying Wu Zhong) siaox liaox le.. haix haix.. How.. madness siaz.. do restore liaox le.. but still cannot get it back lor.. kaoz.. budden lucky I still got those in my harddisk lor.. budden alot of e photos all in my com siaz.. CRAP!! Wahhhh..!! Sadded_ :( haix...

Today supposed to have Amaths lesson wan.. dEn She forgot got our lesson.. but She's a SuperWomen siaz.. So fast jiu reach school to teach us le.. Damn 'pei fu' her lor.. *CLAP HANDS* heeheex.. Woot!! SUPERWOMEN (dadadang dadang) hahax.. Den e class very funny lorz.. say today no cutlet but got pork chop.. den she release us for break.. haha

Den Physics lesson suppose to have 2hrs wan.. dEn teacher need go attend to sth after e first hr.. so he ask us to do e paper.. dEn i do do do half way den i took out my wallet to return someone money.. dEn.. Kaox.. Saw the stupid photo in my wallet den I started crying lorx.. haix... den make Anthony think its I make wan.. (ANTHONY!! SORRY!) lollx.. den WenLin go beat him for me.. hahax)_ haixhaix.. how lehx.. i mean.. its been like so so so so so so so very long le.. den its like.. i mean.. i dun really have any feelings le lor.. budden I also dunno why when i saw the photo den e tears jux flowed down uncontrollably lor.. *sobbx* yea.. haix_

hmm.. dEn after that went to church to see e juniors.. lollx.. they can do better wan lor.. its jux that they are slack siaz.. thats all lor.. yea.. hmm.. dEn.. Ohohoh.. still have.. for the skit siaz.. e Chickens are e best man..! I love their actions and they way they are so enthu lor.. hahas.. followed by the cows.. the only thing is that I feel that they should coordinate themselves better.. yea.. den still have the pigs.. haix.. haix.. i also dunno wad to say saiz.. budden they are like e main actresses lor.. so I think that they should have more emotions ba.. haix.. maybe is cos my expectations are too high le.. But.. i dun think so lehx.. HAIX!!

Yea.. den still have.. at the end hor.. when gonna dismiss liaox.. i think i too fierce le.. i mean.. i also dunno why i scold them lor.. budden i feel that the cap thingy is a personal decision lor.. and its not fair that the e whole coy is being 'dominated' by one level when we are not around.. its like.. HELLO!! This is a CCA lorx... not a gals gang siax.. so yea.. we mux not go overboard.. i noe that that grp.. (not all same batch wan) haix.. they are very close lor.. budden doesnt mean that they can like keep u noe.. dominate the whole coy lor.. its not fair.. you guys are making a decision without the consent of ur peers.. thats bad.. and try to solve your own problems kz? dun wash your dirty linen in public lor... its not fair to your peers and your juniors.. and us our seniors.. pls have more respect.. i dun wanna scold you guys anymore lor.. haix.. SORRY!! (i guess no one can see this anyway.. doesnt matter) haix..
*The world of wadevers

Tuesday, 30/05/2006

2006-05-30T07:09:00.000-07:00

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Goodie goodie.. lollx.. how would i describe my day siaz.. hmm.. fun? boring? yea yea yea.. crap larx.. lollx.. hmm.. mux study hard man.. had Physics lesson today.. learnt quite alot.. still trying to remember all e formula.. so..ya :) JIA YOU!!! hahax.. its hard though.. cos i dun have e foundation in the first place siaz.. Muahahax.. Hmm.. den had Geography.. We learnt to draw e diagrams.. not really learnt.. but jux revise lor.. well, i forgot all of 'em le.. so. yea.. its sorta a 'new' thingy to me larx.. lollx.. my memory is like so bad.. :p hmm.. den had physics again after geog.. followed by Chemistry.. Chemistry, Chemistry, Chemistry, Chemistry, Chemistry, Chemistry, Chemistry, Chemistry... Pheeww!!! lucky siaz.. dun need come back during the third week man.. anyway.. even if i kana i also cant come.. cos going overseas.. Yiipiee!!! cant wait man.. 'SUPERNATURAL IS NATURAL' Woot!!Woot!! Hmm.. still worried abt my Chinese O-Level results.. cant wait to get it back man.. hope i dun need to retake ba.. heeheex.. Den.. still never see kor online.. hahax.. maybe he busy ba.. yea.. poly student lehx.. Biomedical Science.. lollx.. aiya.. he so slack wan lor.. can go JC dun wan go.. go poly.. hahas.. but thats his problem ba.. (**Ooops.. hope he doesnt see this.. ahaha...**) Wait.. i think i've got nothing to say le.. Wow.. cant believe that i've been crapping the past few sentences.. lollx.. haix.. i guess i've gotta end here le.. lollx.. before that.. GUESS WHAT?? theres a CUTE guy in my block man.. CUTECUTECUTE.. wah.. HE IS SO CUTE LOR!!! heexheex.... hey.. dun look at the post like that larx.. cute doesnt mean i like ma.. hahas.. Woot! kk g2g le byebye
*The world of wadevers

Monday, 29/05/2006

2006-05-29T02:52:00.000-07:00

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Ole ole ole ole.. hahas.. jux finished my O-Level Chiinese Paper today.. lollx.. and so yea.. decided to blog.. cos I havent been blogging and my blog is like so gonna rot soon.. lollx.. heeheex. yupxx.. my week havent been good siaz.. studied and memorised the chinese phrases like mad.. haix.. hope can get at least a B3 ba.. considering my standard.. ;( *sobx sobx* lollx.. anyways.. haix.. i dunno wads happening to me.. so like.. u noe.. confusedd.. :S so many things to do yet so little time_ Crap crap crap.. but life's like this right? wad to do.. tats life.. the more you hate it the more it tortures you.. tsktsktsk... sianz lar.. tml got lesson.. haix.. my holidays are like all eaten up lor.. like if theres any holidays in the first place siaz.. kaoz..! hmm.. havent been talking to kor also.. i think its cos i seldom go online ba.. yea.. havent been online for about like.. 2weeks or so i guess.. i'm like so lagging behind technology.. So.. hmm.. i guess i've gotta go catch up.. lollx.. so.. i think thats all le ba.. hahax..
*The world of wadevers

Saturday, 20/05/2006

2006-05-20T08:09:00.000-07:00

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Haix.. sianx.. nth much happened today.. jus that went school today for Chinese Intensive.. yupx.. dEn we did one Paper2 there.. then copied one ying yong wen that teacher wrote.. yea.. nth much ba.. dEn supposed to end at 11am wan.. so i told my dad.. dEn in the end gotta msg him to say end at 12plus.. dEn they waited for my in the Library lor.. lollx.. sth new though.. my brother is learning to knit.. hahax.. he is like so obessed with going to States.. not that we confirm going.. hehe k g2g le.. byebye_
*The world of wadevers

Friday, 19/05/2006

2006-05-19T07:37:00.000-07:00

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heeheex.. i dunno wad to blog today.. so.. erms.. its gonna be a very short wan.. hahax.. i cant wait for O-level chinese to be over.. den can start on e other subjects.. yea.. but i scared fail lehx.. :( anyway.. i think i'll end here.. bye_

Thursday, 18/05/2006

2006-05-18T05:14:00.000-07:00

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Wow.. It's beeeen like sooo many days since I've blogged.. hahas.. whew.. waiting for e Mid-year results to release.. lollx.. well got some of them and didnt do very well.. Flunked Chinese, Sci and Phy.. Sobx.. but yea.. disappointed lor.. Amaths got C6 or C5.. den Emaths got A2.. lollx.. heeheex_ hmm.. yea.. tml gotta hand in CC project.. so yea.. completing it.. hahax... mux jia you siaz.. :) hmm.. actually.. i really dunno wad to say lor.. but lessons recently are boring.. ohoh... except for Eng lesson, we got to watch a short part of the 'Sixth Sense' and did a w/s on it lor.. watch some part of e Phantom of e opera too siaz.. so cooll.. heeheex.. e songs are SOOOO nice.. i love it man! hmm.. i dun think i got anymore to blog le.. mux go write report le_ byebye__

Friday, 12/05/2006

2006-05-12T00:12:00.000-07:00

Searching for the guy I once love_
Today no school, cos Vesak Day.. den this morning my bro set alarm.. wan me go pei him run.. den told me he set at 8am.. den he forget to tell me that supposed to wake up at 7am (actually its cos i sleep le.. haa!) so never go run.. lollx.. so went Alexandra Village for breakfast.. dEn went IKEA, bought some extra stuff.. (my parents worx.. not me) den went to eat luch there too.. e chicken wings and meatballs RAWKZ!! hahax.. hmm.. den come home liaox lor.. cos my dad say mux come home rest.. later going to watch Mission Impossible : III YEAH!! heeheex.. Tom Cruise Lehx.. Woot!Woot! hahax.. kkz.. enough crapping here.. g2g le.. hahax.. byebye_

Thursday, 11/05/2006

2006-05-11T00:18:00.000-07:00

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YEAH!!!! EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!! WOOH!!

lollx.. went home after e paper.. den dun have pass, so stand outside e gate and wait wait wait for someone to come out den I went in lor.. haix! dEn bathe liaox... jiu send my bro to sch. den come back home want to use com, but my dad go use.. den update his stuff, dEn so long somemore lor.. TWO HOURS PLUS LEHX!!! WAHHHHH!!! waste my time lor.. i sit there like an idiot.. =( heehee.. dEn now using com le.. hahax.. Oh yea.. daddie say tml maybe going for show.. most likely watching MI:III YEAH!! Tom Cruise siaz.. so action-pact.. cant wait man!! kkz.. leaving now.. going slack somemore le.. buai_

Sunday, 07/05/2006

2006-05-06T19:37:00.000-07:00

Woah.. Haven't been posting for almost one week. ONE WEEK!!! Ah.. wah.. cos of mid-years siaz.. stressed lor.. e papers are hard.. den write until my pen no ink le.. wah.. siaox lor.. XD lollx. budden EM Paper1 quite easy lehz.. except for e Loci thingy.. hahax. Hmm.. dEn tml got History paper and AM Paper2.. crazy.. need go study again.. budden last papaer on thursday.. lollx.. Yippeey!! hahax.. Yupx.. i think tats all folks.. Gotta go study History.. lollx.. need read on Mao Ze Dong and more.. XD

Saturday, 29/04/2006

2006-04-29T07:37:00.000-07:00

Saturday.. supposed to wake up at 8am this morning cos need to jog with my bro (he wants to train for his 1.6km run) budden his hp batt flat.. so never ring.. so never go.. lollx.. i think he purposely wan lor.. hahax.. aiyo.. dEn suppose go out with mum n dad for breakfast wan den cos overslept, so they left w/o us.. lollx den got tuition.. haix.. EMaths paper1 on tuesday lehx.. STRESSED!!!!!!!!!!AH!!!!!!!!!!!! :( haahx.. XD dEn after that went People's Park to eat and buy stuff.. den sway sway dun have gotta order.. now mux wait till got stock... sianz.. Zzz.. dEn went home.. dEn cos got BBQ so cant go Youth Ablaze (I MISS CELL) hahax.. so i went down swim lor.. dEn after that go for BBQ.. lollx.. Yummy food!!! hmm.. i think shld be abt all le ba.. g2g le.. need go study SS.. byebye!!

Friday, 28/04/2006

2006-04-28T05:49:00.000-07:00

hahax.. today damn sianz siaz.. lollx.. nth much ba.. dEn go home and slack.. :p hmm.. yea.. actually went home study siaz.. lollx.. hmm.. dEn now at Ah Gong hse.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AH GONG!!! XD hehe.. kkz.. dun crap le.. hahax!! byebye

Thursday, 27/04/2006

2006-04-27T00:36:00.000-07:00

Wahahax.. today went out with e Sec4s.. lollx.. except for mai nu er..cos she go out with her friend.. and also another wan who give stupid excuse tat she cant come lor.. wah kao bei! Humph.. let's not stay on e topic.. dun spoil my mood :p lollx.. we went Yoshi.. den ate e student meal.. hahax.. dEn changed prezzie!! wah.. mine cute lor! 2keychain... THX GINA!! lollx.. dEn we went to take Neos.. wahahax.. so nice.. hmm.. nxt time den i post up here ba.. my scanner abit siao siao..den cant scan in :p lollx.. hmm.. wah time time try to post.. den e com lag.. :( dEN e post cannot upload..*sadded* lollx.. anywayx.. i think its time to go le.. need go do SS and Phy lerhx.. or else tml surely kana punished de.. byebye

Monday 24/04/2006

2006-04-24T05:07:00.000-07:00

- C e L -

Wah.. I jux remembered.. cannot anyho type names in blog wan.. lollx. so.. mux try not to type names.. :p
kkz.. almost fell asleep during phy lesson today siax.. The teacher's nt boring.. jux a little monotonous lorx.. so quite sianx sianx wan.. ;(
den got Amaths.. dEn geog.. WAH!!! STRESSED ARHX!!! mid-year coming le.. Zzz.. need chiong lor.. haix..
Den got assembly talk on cancer.. den everyone tok tok tok.. damn embarrasing lor.. wah.. *paiseh*.. den kana scolded.. den everyone suddenly become guai.. hahax..
aiya.. i think i end here le.. nth much to say le.. hahax.. byebye! :p

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Sunday 23/04/2006

2006-04-22T22:10:00.000-07:00

- C e L -

K, I'm here now.. jux finished asking Dearie Gwennie abt how to make a blog.. so this is my first post!
Yea.. I'm like a noob at this.. so.. ppl who are reading this pls dun mind me k.. lollx. todays pretty boring.. jux hangign abt doing nth.. but will be going to cousin's hse later.. so can go gossip! XD
Yupxx.. I love gossiping lor.. but I'm not bitch.. k.. I'm done.. tata

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